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What i learned from not being loved back…

What i learned from not being loved back…

I have loved you. I laid my restless lips on yours. You asked me to wrap my legs around you.

I did, in ecstasy—waiting to be devoured, to be taken.Your warm place has always invited me to stay. We saw lanterns in the sky and dearly enjoyed dancing under the moonlight. You asked me never to stop singing, we spun and twirled in circles, we danced our grief and loneliness out, you danced my love out.You told me that silence never felt that good with anyone, and I awaited our next silent meeting. It was one painful wait. You brushed me with your light and showed me the way to pain and back, bemoaning your existence and mine.We shared it all.You taught me well about being spiritual, you mentioned “Tao” and “God.” You mentioned “her” too, a lot. So I taught myself how to keep my distance. I taught myself the meaning of letting go when you want to hang on so much. To live with the pain that has always been feeding on your sentimental heart and slow breath, live with it alongside tears of pride and missing someone so much, he could be in front of you and you’re unable to show your yearning, dammit. And oh, how I disgraced myself pining for your scent many more times than my body could find ways to express.My unrequited love, you taught me to love you, so efficaciously and skillfully you did. And I taught myself to undo it.

To anyone who has endured a similar experience, do me a favor, don’t waste your time waiting for somebody who isn’t ready. Even if all the stars are aligned and directing this path of endless suffering, don’t do it. Know your worth, it’s never too late, and know you’ll be guided to the exact lessons you need to move on and breathe again.

There’s no use for the crackling of your heart beat and your reluctance to release yourself from tears and wails.

Your heart is a skeptic, she knows better…don’t ignore her.

Remember, you will be loved.

Spring will come again sprouting blossoms of what autumn took away from you. Move. Okay? Go.

Set yourself free…

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Aku tanya Apa khaaabbaaarrrr??

Aku tanya Apa khaaabbaaarrrr??

Wow! Lama gile tak update, nasib baik tak lupa password… Banyak reason kenapa tak update tapi semua nya tak penting  untuk aku tepek kat sini… yang penting , lagi beberapa hari kita akan menyambut bulan ramadan and mari lah kita bermaaf-maafan…eh, macam dah raya la pulak…

Anyway…to break the ice…aku saje nak share gambar time besday kak jah aritu… Kak Jah dapat munger….. ada juga orang yang sayangkan Kak Jah…. lepas tu dapat surprise kek kat hopis, malam my papa belanja makan kat Gelang Patah….. syukur alhamdullillah…. dalam pada ada yang membenci, masih ramei yang sayang Kak Jah….

Sila lah menyampah tengok gambar2 Kak Jah nehh…Kak Jah saje letak cermin mata kat gambaq2 ni, sebab takut dengan paparazzi…. hahaha

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Gambar kat Gelang Patah tak hambek sebab Kak Jah busy nak makan… Mana boleh, dah la Kak Jah ni makan slow, nanti piranha2 : yakni adik beradik dan ibubapa Kak Jah habiskan… hihi…